well, i am home and i am in pain

I have to thank my sister, Michal for updating the blog in my absence. Her post was really quite lovely and she's absolutely right... I have been graciously and wonderfully supported during this lastest stop on the journey.

Since I just got into bed and it seems that finding a comfortable resting place is going to be difficult... I may have to keep this initial post short.

Few notes:

• the surgery was far too long
• the way my stomach feels right now,  I'm not sure iI made the right decision
• I really expected to wake up and feel "all good"...but I don't.
• All of the love and kindness is truly appreciated
• I'm really feeling very sad.

There are a few side effects that the sugery kicked off; like the lymphedema in my left arm is SERIOUS right now. Which means, more doctors, more appointments and more time/money. Right now I have three drains hanging out of my body -- and its gross as hell. I'm swollen like a balloon and it is NOT CUTE at all.

But I'm here and a few days ago, I really wasn't sure that I would be. I'm tired, I'm scared and I'm without any percocet to get through the night.

But I'm here. Details will come soon... and they will be more entertaining than this post. I promise. Its just been a long few days.